..::3 months and 11 days::..

i'm back.

but i feel kinda lost in my own blog.

have i lost the touch of even putting my own thoughts down into words?

my brains are gonna disappear into thin air if i don't start thinking again.

but i'm tired.

of thinking.

can i not think anymore?

i want to.

yet i don't want to.

i need to.


what was the purpose of this blog again?

i only want to use it to glorify Your name, Daddy.

to encourage the people who reads it.

and to place my thoughts of what i learn about life.

have i done that?

are You glorified?

have you been encouraged?

am i learning about life?

i've misused it for a bit.

i'm sorry.

be patient.

it'll come back.

slowly.

i'm still learning.

i still want to encourage.

i still want to glorify.


life.

it ain't easy.

but it's colourful.

indeed.

i love life.

yet i'm afraid of life.

complicated isn't it?

i bet you do feel the same about it.

don't you?

i am who i am today because of how life has shaped me.

i'm thankful.

to You, Daddy.

for the life You've given me.

it's not by coincidence.

for i'm fearfully and wonderfully made.


i'm quite a deep person.

in thoughts, in emotions.

sometimes i just don't show it.

forgive me if i seem quiet sometimes.

i'm just not good with words yet.

i don't know how to express it.

i guess that has affected me.

to be somewhat macho.

i still have my soft spots.

i'm still a lil uncomfortable.

to reveal all of them just yet.

so forgive me.

if i don't speak the right words.

or give the right touch.


inspired to inspire.

touched to touch.

encouraged to encourage.

loved to love.

fed to feed.

clothed to clothe.

given to give.

blessed to bless.


courage for a dream.

people that matters.

worthwhile relationships.

strengthening of the feet.

boldness for the streets.

humbling encounters.


scandalous grace.


-bea-