what matters most! *smilez*

i know, i know. the past few post was quite a downer. didn't want it that way. but well, shit happens doesn't it? :p and besides, it's my blogggg~! i can do nything i want with it! lalala~! wheee~!

i understand why it happened the way it happened. i understand why Daddy allowed it to happen. mayb He did it on purpose :p i don't know bout it. but i know He has a greater plan. Jeremiah 29:11 - "For I know the plans i have for you," says the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future." i may not know Daddy's plans exactly, but i can already see that it will be good for me. heartaches may come, disappointments may come. painful as it is, life still goes on. painful as it is, character is built. someone once said, the pains that come with growing proves the healing process. it may be slow but at least it's healing :D

Daddy's been there. watching, calling. "i am all you need, dear", He keeps telling me. "hush a little, sit with me, i want just you. i've got the best hugss kept for you. i just want to love you. would you let me love you?" i understand now why He lets those things happen to me. i knew long time ago. but it was merely words in my ears. now, i truly understand :)i guess even though a few (including myself) has reminded me, it still didn't sink into me. i don't know why. disillusioned? ashamed? pride? guilt? maybe. i don't know. but all's good now :)i'm gonna focus on what matters most! on you Daddy! let us not be distracted for far too long ya?

to all u gurls (literally all u gurls reading my blog :D) whom i love very much, thank you for being there, supporting me, encouraging me, loving me. you gurls mean a lot to me. every single one of you has somehow or rather impacted my life and made a difference in it! most importantly, you gurls are precious and beautiful! don't let anyone else tell you otherwise :) *BIGhugz* getting a lil mushy here...but hey, cherish it. i can onli express this on writing :p too macho for it to come out from my mouth :p love you gurls!

to you, who cares a lot bout me, who worries bout me (esp when i don't eat :p), thank you :) don't worry no more. i'm getting better. i see a greater purpose ;) i hope u get better too! it wont be difficult when our central focus are alwiz on Daddy ;) i pray u'll be strong enough to be firm on your stands. *bearHUGZ* keeping you in my prayers :) love you!

to you who's still in the land of the sheeps (hopefully u're reading this:p), every memory, every moment, every conversation. it's kept close to my heart and it's been really precious to me. i hope u're doing well there. i hope one day u too will be able to see the bigger picture of what matters most. i pray one day u'll be back and running like how you used to be. i pray one day i'll be able to serve with you again. i know it's still somewhere deep down in your heart :) missing you terribly! love you! *HARGZ*

it wont be easy. but it will be great! thank you Daddy! and thank you lovely and precious people!


-bea-